SEPTEMBER 18 — ✨Signs✨

Over the course of writing my book these past two years, I asked the question that a lot of grieving people ask: “Does consciousness survive death?”  It’s a question with no definitive answers, but what has really stood out to me is just how much research has been done by people of science. One book that […]

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MARCH 22 — Retablos from Caitlin

I haven’t seen the new movie, “Five Feet Apart,” about two teenagers with CF, but I hear that it  “gets it right” and I’m excited about that. A while ago, I’d said I would start posting more of Caitlin’s own words here. I got too busy writing my book to focus on it, but with […]

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MARCH 12–Four ♥ Stories & A Big Loud Meow

Update needed, as Caitlin used to say. ♥ Story 1, JESS: Nick and I are on St. John. The night before we left, we had dinner with the incredible Jess in Boston. She had been cleared by her oncology team to go to Kenya for two weeks. Once in Nanyuki, she was able to finally lay […]

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26 JUNE ~ For Hurting Hearts Everywhere

A few months ago, Nick ran across a call for artists for an annual juried outdoor art exhibition at a nature preserve in Southborough, MA. ART ON THE TRAILS opened last week.         A Message from Nick These past months, I smiled outwardly whenever family and friends approached or contacted me–-I’m a lucky guy. Inwardly, […]

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APRIL 23–Coincidences (?)

There are so many, and they have happened pretty much every day, this past year. Here are a couple of crazy ones. When I announced, in September, that I would be writing my story in a more contained form, the universe seemed to lead me to Dani Shapiro, the author of many moving pieces of […]

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NOVEMBER 16–& the Anniversaries Begin

I know all the dates. Yesterday a year ago was the last night Caitlin would ever sleep in her own bed. That night, she was so weak she did not have the strength to sit in the bathtub and let me wash her hair. I was so alarmed I emailed her doctor at 10pm. On […]

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SEPTEMBER 26 — The Caitlin Book

From a little notebook of Caitlin’s: April 27th, 2012 I am grateful for — My parents My friends My apartment & car My dog My ability to be able to go out and have fun even though I’m sick. In July of 2014, 6 months into full time care-giving, I realized that I hadn’t worked […]

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DECEMBER 24–All is Bright

It’s Christmas Eve, a night for faith and hope, no matter what your faith, no matter what you hope for. Last night, a visiting friend said he was angry, said, “That’s where I struggle with faith. How could any God allow that to happen?” “No, no, no!” I said. “Please don’t think that. I need […]

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DECEMBER 23–Remedies for LOVE

We came home yesterday. Our wonderfully kind friend Jimmy C sent his plane for us in Pittsburgh, and Oh my God!—it made for an easy, stress-free transfer, and we couldn’t be more grateful. To just get driven to the airstrip, board the plane, kind pilots, up we go, 50 minutes: home. Home. My wonderful sister […]

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