12/18–7:50pm

OKAY! She is successfully off the heart-lung bypass machine, and transitioned back onto ECMO. This needed to happen, and happen as quickly as possible.

The dialysis will work to hopefully reduce the lactates in her liver.

Thank you to our blessed real-life angel Sinead. I woke her up in London after the surgeon dropped the frightening news on us. She tapped into Caitlin, and worked with her for fifteen minutes, told me what was going on with her body, told me what I could do myself. I was up in the chapel and when I came down the elevator, Nick, Andrew, and Jess were waiting to tell me of the success.

This is going to be a very bumpy road… we expected it and it’s here. The recovery is tough, but we are all here to help her through this.

We are still waiting in the waiting area. She is still critical. But….

GUYS……………..SHE HAS NEW WORKING LUNGS!!!

12/18–7pm

Technically, the surgery is done, but they’re having trouble getting Caitlin off the heart/lung bypass. Her body needs to start up again on its own, generate blood pressure. They’re setting up multiple dialysis machines to try and help her transition off the heart/lung support back to ECMO.

That’s all I know at the moment. Prayers.

 

12/18 2:44 pm–Right Lung In, Perfect Fit

We got word that the lungs arrived safely to the OR at noon, and just recently got word that the right lung is already in. It was a perfect fit, with no trimming needed. This is what you hope for.

Her left lower lobe was removed when she was 11, so there is a lot of scar tissue on that side. That will be more of an issue, but it’s very very good news that the right lung went in so easily. I am overcome to know that our wonderful Caitlin now has a healthy lung inside of her! Google transplanted lungs and you will see what these people have been trying to live on for so long.

Thank you, thank you, dear donor and family.

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A tribute to donors, along “the bridge.”

Late yesterday afternoon, I brought Jess over to the “bridge,” which connects Presby Hospital to Montefiore Hospital. It’s the prettiest part of the complex here, with lots of glass windows, and walls lined with photos of bridges across the world. (Pittsburgh is called the City of Bridges). It’s been hard for me to go over there these past ten days, because I associate it with Caitlin, but I wanted Jess to see it. We walked along and looked at all the photographs, and talked about Caitlin, and how brave she has always been. For example, in 2012, she packed all of her oxygen equipment and medicines into a suitcase almost as large as she was, and rented an apartment for two weeks, alone, in Paris. As hard as that was to do, she knew time was running out for her to do it at all. Indeed, 2013 was the year she finally crashed and began to use oxygen 24/7.

After crossing the bridge, Jess and I went into the Meditation Room/Chapel and sat quietly. I wrote a request in the Prayer Request book. Jess said, “Can I add something?”

“Of course,” I said.

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She wrote, today.

Our friends MJ and Scott Hamilton told us about someone who is waiting for sainthood, but needs another miracle, so we added him, too. He died on Groundhog Day in 1921, and February 2 has always been an auspicious day for our family.

The surgeon’s call came at 10pm.

–Maryanne

DECEMBER 18–It’s a Go

Bottom line for all who are holding their breath:

At 8:30 am, Caitlin was taken to the OR. At 9:30, we got word that the blessed donor lungs are good and that surgery will begin as these lungs make their way to Caitlin. (It’s a carefully timed and choreographed surgical dance.)

This will be a long day, with few updates. It’s an extremely high risk surgery at this point, and we can only hold tight. This is usually a 12-hour or so surgery, but it can go for up to 20 hours, or even more.

I’ll update, during the day, with what I know and with little stories about how this all went down.

THANK YOU, ALL, for your prayers and love and light for our beloved Caitlin, and for the donor family and their holiday loss. I am holding them in my heart.summer-2012

The light in our lives.

–Maryanne, with Nick, Andrew, and Jess

 

DECEMBER 17–A Bits & Pieces Update

Caitlin’s holding steady, but her liver is causing problems, bilirubin rising. She’ll soon have her third bag of acetadote which they’re using to try and combat this. I also emailed Caitlin’s brilliant Boston acupuncturist, Marcy, to ask what points I could possibly work on. When I took a long Q-tip and started massaging the left ear point, Caitlin made an “ouch” face—the first physical reaction in two days.

Jess and Nick and I are working those points frequently.

Her 4am labs showed lactate levels also rising, possibly due to lack of oxygenation in the tissues and worrisome, but the late morning labs had them trending down, slightly.

Last night, a Boston TV station aired Caitlin’s story. Nick and our dear friend Laura Kelly did a great job. Thanks to Jess for getting the pictures to the reporters who worked on the story and were so very compassionate.

WordPress seems to be having some embedding problems, so click here to view the story if it doesn’t show up as embedded:

http://www.fox25boston.com/news/family-hoping-for-a-miracle-as-daughter-awaits-double-lung-transplant/476653172

This is just a screenshot of the clip, not a link:

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–Maryanne

DECEMBER 16–A Matter of Ethics

 

Many people rightly wonder why Caitlin couldn’t be transplanted at home, in our world-class medical city, Boston. The answer is disturbing, and points to a flaw in the medical system. It’s a fight she was gearing up to fight, one she plans to continue after transplant. Here is a draft of a letter she was working on in October of this year:

I grew up outside Boston, and have been a patient at Children’s since I was diagnosed at age 2 with CF, in 1985. Once an adult, I transitioned to inpatient treatment at Brigham and Womens Hospital (BWH).

In spring of 2006 I was still “too healthy” for transplant, but I began the process at BWH at my doctor’s urging. BWH was one of the hospitals who transplanted cenocepacia patients like me — along with UPMC, Cleveland Clinic, Duke, and a handful of others.  “Better to get started early” was the thinking, “so that when you get really sick, you are ready to be listed.” I began the evaluation as an an outpatient and completed a significant amount of its required tests.  I continued to remain fairly stable in my health.

Then, in 2008, an administrative assistant from BWH called me, out of the blue, as I was getting ready for work, and told me they would no longer be able to offer me a spot for transplant because of my cenocepacia.  Things spun for a minute — “No, I argued, “You already know I have cenocepacia, we’ve been over this, your program takes cepacia patients.”

There had been a change in policy, the woman said.

I wasn’t sure what to think. I was confused before I could be upset. The woman said I should have received a letter.  I hadn’t, although it did arrive in the mail, weeks later — simple and boilerplate — another baffling link in the chain of events.  Soon, almost all of the other hospitals began to deny transplant to cenocepacia patients. I grew panicky.

Eventually, I worsened and did my evaluation at UPMC. I was listed on April 24, 2014. Because I would need to reach UPMC in four hours, we set up emergency jet service (which is never a guarantee), and began to wait. When December came, my mother and I moved to Pittsburgh to “wait out the winter.”

Winter passed. May of 2015 found me sick and in the hospital. It made no sense to go home at that point, and surely I would be called soon, was the thinking. We reluctantly signed a new lease on an apartment.

A year passed.

I have now been listed at UPMC for 2 ½ years. It’s taken an incredible emotional and financial toll on my family. I own an apartment in Boston, right around the corner from the hospital, that sits empty while I wait here.

So why did all of this suddenly happen?

A study in the American Journal of Transplantation in 2008 concluded this :

Cooperation between CF treatment and LT centers will hopefully provide new insights into virulence, transmissibility and treatment regimens for this unique and challenging pathogen. More specifically, further studies to identify which specific strains of B. cenocepacia may be more virulent, the mechanisms behind the virulence in such strains and investigations to tease out what host factors might influence progression of the infection in the CF population
should be a priority. Until then, we recommend the careful screening of all CF patients for BCC and excluding from LT those harboring B. cenocepacia, regardless of susceptibility profile.

That conclusion, and recommendation, was made despite the fact that the study was based on  a very small group of people with cenocepacia – 7.  Of those 7, 3 died of Burkholderia-related complications, 2 died of other transplant complications, and 2 were …alive.  The data of these 7 individuals was taken from groupings of people who were transplanted between 1992-2002, a time span that began 16 years prior, when many programs were just beginning to offer transplants, and ended six 6 years prior to the study’s date of publication.  The group of non-burkholderia CF patients used as comparison was a study of 59 patients.  9 cultured other forms of BCC, and as mentioned before, 7 harbored cenocepacia.

Being that there are so few studies on cenocepacia and their outcomes, and even fewer at the time the article was written in 2008, the conclusions drawn cast a wide net across the transplant community.  I personally was immediately removed from the transplant list at Brigham and Women’s.  I was upset, but it would still be a couple of years before the reverberations of this decision were truly felt, when I got much sicker.  For some, they were already being felt, and for others they meant the arrow pointing towards death was now certain.

This situation is a serious matter of ethics.

The blanket exclusion of one very small group of people from almost all centers, based soley on the organism that they culture, is ethically wrong.  Not only is the data presented about cenocepacia and transplant anecdotal and outdated, but the process of eliminating one very small minority group like this on that outdated evidence is directly in contrast with the typical “case-by-case basis” methodology of evaluating patients at most centers.

Transplant centers certainly must reserve the right to evaluate and accept, or reject, transplant candidates. But it should be on a case by case basis.

Where is the logic in being pointed in the direction of certain death, because the risk of possible death is too great in the other direction? Is that what lies at the core of medicine? Balancing risk, but to a fault?

To those who say “it’s a complicated issue,” I say, “It’s not, its a simple issue, with a complicated story.” At 33, I have end-stage CF that ends with certain, early death.  There exists a potentially life-saving surgery available, but because this surgery includes a risk of death, I am being denied opportunity for it by nearly every center in the country.  When a man is drowning, does the man on shore say “I can’t save you, we could both drown?” Sometimes he does and he has to live with himself, because that person will certainly drown without help.  This is even simpler than that.  No surgeon will die if I die, no doctor or caregiver.  Is my chance at a year, or two, or five at life, worth less than someone else’s? Who gets to ‘decide’ who uses organs “to the fullest?”  I challenge you to ask anyone who has had a transplant if they’d do it all over again even if they knew they would die after only a year, and you will hear a resounding, unanimous, YES.
UPMC Pittsburgh practices real medicine. This transplant team is not in the business of cherry-picking the candidates they deem most likely to survive, in order to improve their statistics. Instead, they accept high-risk, last-resort patients like me, in an attempt to save our lives. I am grateful to my team: my compassionate pulmonologist, Joseph Pilewski, and the brilliant surgeons, Drs. D’Cunha, Shigemura, and Hayanga.

—Caitlin O’Hara

DECEMBER 16–The Thing with Feathers

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“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul – and sings the tunes without the words – and never stops at all.” – Emily Dickinson

I believe in the power of energy and I believe in the power of love. I believe that if as many people as possible know about Caitlin and as many as possible set an intention, that the most perfect Harry Potter lungs will come this weekend. If you don’t know Caitlin, she is as kind as they come. She is the person who donates generously to every desperate cause, tips 50%, who fights for what she believes in, and is empathetic beyond belief. Because it is Christmastime, and because she desperately needs lungs, please do something for her today. Donate what you can, in her name, to a critical cause like Aleppo via Partners in Health, smile at a sad-looking stranger, leave an anonymous holiday greeting on someone’s windshield – do it in Caitlin’s spirit. She’s at UPMC Pittsburgh and, because she is O+ and 5’2”, the donor pool is very small and regionally-based. Her family is grateful that direct organ donation to Caitlin is an option. She is on life support and is in desperate need. Please spread the word via social media (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram) to as many people as possible and keep fighting, just as Caitlin would do for each and every one of us. #lungsforCaitlin

–Jess

 

Jessica Danforth is a from-the-first-meeting, deep soul friend of Caitlin’s. They met at St. Mark’s 17 years ago and are devoted to each other. Jess has had her own breast cancer battle this past year (shared here) and flew here, after chemo on Monday, from San Francisco to be with us. She reads to Caitlin—Mary Oliver, poems, messages from all of Caitlin’s friends. She gives our buddy three-hour hand massages, plays music, talks to her, and sleeps in a family room chair bed. She is made of pure goodness and love. She is Caitlin’s bedside angel.

–Maryanne

DECEMBER 16–The Tiger Inside

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Instagram opened to this. I like a good sign.

Clearly, my silence of the past few days has indicated that it has been a time of waxing and waning health and hope. I’m not going to go into all the details but Caitlin has had a lot of complications and on Tuesday was temporarily considered “not strong enough to undergo surgery.” BUT–in the past 36 hours, she has made some steady and unexpected improvements. The incredible Penny, our ICU doc, has pulled all kinds of tricks out of her Mary Poppins bag to help her, and Caitlin’s deeply gifted intuitive healer cousin, Sinead, in London, has been working, nonstop, (even talking with Caitlin in her sleep, she’s been told), to read Caitlin, (it’s wild how accurate she is), and send healing. We all feel the prayers and energy coming from all around our buddy. Probably most importantly, deep inside, Caitlin’s inner tiger stopped resisting and fighting the help and is now calmly fighting to help herself.

Her liver and kidneys were in trouble, and her blood pressure was low. She went on dialysis on Tuesday. By yesterday, they’d cut way back on it, and her body was producing lots of urine on its own, surprising everyone.

She was put on blood pressure support to increase her blood pressure.  She’s still on blood pressure support meds, but they’ve been reduced, with no drop in pressure, and that’s a good sign. We need for that to continue.

Her liver is still in trouble, but it’s a young liver and can bounce back. Still, we need to help it improve, and that means cutting down on the medications she’s on.

Her belly was having problems and they’ve had to stop feeding for a while to give it a break.

So there’s a list of stuff to pray for. She’s very sick but there is hope. You can read some of the comments on this blog, from other transplant patients, who’ve “been there and lived to tell the tale.” I’m grateful that strangers have reached out to comfort us with their stories.

The surgeons are still considering all offers for her, but any lungs cannot be less than perfect in her case, they must be Harry Potter lungs. And she must be strong enough to withstand the surgery. So it’s a constant monitoring, and a “feel,” as her surgeon said.

I cannot thank you all enough for sending so much love and support her way. This has been a difficult emotional time, yet also overwhelmingly uplifting.

Nothing is worth more than love. Nothing.

 

–Maryanne, with Nick, Andrew, Jess