MARCH 4–Knock knock knockin’

Caitlin O'Hara, Cystic Fibrosis, Little Matches

Yesterday I heard Knocking on Heaven’s Door (different versions) 3 times before 10am. That got me thinking about Caitlin, and about Bob Dylan. Here’s a text she wrote, in November, about him winning the Nobel Prize for Literature. Something to read on a frigid Saturday. The more I think about the Dylan thing the more […]

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JANUARY 7–Signs & signs

Weird to open up my little travel computer, here in CA, for the first time since December 20 and see all the windows containing my last hopeful posts, still open. iMessages is updating my text messages before my eyes, and all the texts of the past few weeks are flashing as if in real time. […]

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12/19–Verdict: No Real Sign of Trouble

Caitlin came back from her trip to the OR. Her surgeon and his fellow thoroughly searched for anything that could be causing the high lactate levels. The good news was that they did a deep and thorough search and everything looked good. No dead tissue to be seen. The liver is likely the problem, because […]

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DECEMBER 19–Update from the Trenches

Caitlin has new working lungs, but the rest of her is struggling, and she needs all the energetic help she can get, along with everything her incredible doctors are giving her. 1. Her liver is still in tough shape, but the numbers were slightly better this morning. 2. She’s producing a lot of lactate, which […]

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DECEMBER 11–Back to the OR

It’s 11pm on Sunday night, and Caitlin has had to go back to the OR. Clotting is a risk with the ECMO cannulas through which her blood flows. The system is monitored constantly and a couple of hours ago, they discovered a clot. They clamped off part of the tubing to try and extract it, […]

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DECEMBER 9–‘The Sickest Person in the United States’

Caitlin just got out of the OR again, where the head lung transplant surgeon here at UPMC Pittsburgh, Dr. John D’Cunha, inserted a trach. It gets the breathing tube out of her mouth, makes her a lot more comfortable, and helps her oxygen saturation. He came in to tell us that all had gone well […]

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DECEMBER 7–Second Hearts

Last night, Caitlin was stable but at 4am we woke to the news that her left leg, site of the new arterial cannula, was swollen. They couldn’t detect any pulses in the foot. Her leg would soon be in danger if they didn’t act. At 5am she went back into the OR to receive a […]

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