DECEMBER 20 —

Well, this is a tough day, no question, but I have to mark it with a post. Last week, I finally made time to visit the medical museum run by Mass General Hospital. I wanted to get a close-up view of the first heart-lung machine, which I’d been seeing through the window whenever I passed […]

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FEBRUARY 16–Back in the Burgh

On November 16, three months ago today, we took Caitlin to the hospital for the last time. Now we are finally back in Pittsburgh, packing up our apartment. I’d been sick with dread, anticipating this, but I knew it was necessary to do it personally. My sister and brother-in-law are helping us, and that means […]

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JANUARY 20–‘In the Dark May You See’

January 20. Caitlin’s been gone a month, and many of us are sharing a national day of mourning. My friend, the wonderful writer Jennie Fields, just shared two new poems written by her friend Kory Wells. These poems really speak to me, and I hope they will speak to you as well. “In the dark […]

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DECEMBER 24–All is Bright

It’s Christmas Eve, a night for faith and hope, no matter what your faith, no matter what you hope for. Last night, a visiting friend said he was angry, said, “That’s where I struggle with faith. How could any God allow that to happen?” “No, no, no!” I said. “Please don’t think that. I need […]

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DECEMBER 22—Keeping Her Alive

Keeping Kitten Caitlin alive, the way museums do. Caitlin was, honestly, a bit of an art history genius. She found her calling in an AP Art History class at St. Mark’s School —-looking at slides in the dark, there was nothing better, she always said.  At BC, she received the Art History award, and graduated […]

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DECEMBER 11 — Light Snow, Quiet

Sorry for the lull in updates, but things are pretty quiet in the CTICU today and that’s a good thing. It’s been snowing lightly all morning. Christmas carols are playing in the lobbies. Winter has come, and we always felt she’d be transplanted in winter. She’s had dressing changes, adjustments to the ECMO, constant monitoring, […]

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