APRIL 23–Coincidences (?)

There are so many, and they have happened pretty much every day, this past year. Here are a couple of crazy ones. When I announced, in September, that I would be writing my story in a more contained form, the universe seemed to lead me to Dani Shapiro, the author of many moving pieces of […]

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FEBRUARY 8 — St. John Onward

I haven’t been blogging because I am focused on writing “the Caitlin book,” but we are on our family’s beloved island of St. John right now, and it seems a good time to say hello. In 2014 (4 years ago, how can that be??), we had a big trip to St. John planned. I had […]

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DECEMBER 18 — “God was in the room”

So it’s been a year since Caitlin’s transplant. A fact that’s as hard to believe as her absence. This post from that day, if the lungs had come a month earlier, before the weeks on ECMO…. … too painful to think about, really. So. I’m going to let Caitlin’s words take over, with thanks to […]

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NOVEMBER 16–& the Anniversaries Begin

I know all the dates. Yesterday a year ago was the last night Caitlin would ever sleep in her own bed. That night, she was so weak she did not have the strength to sit in the bathtub and let me wash her hair. I was so alarmed I emailed her doctor at 10pm. On […]

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OCTOBER 31 — Thinning of the Veil

Caitlin’s friend Shelley and I were just talking about the origins of Halloween—Samhain. She sent along a great link about all that, and about the “thinning of the veil” that supposedly occurs during this autumn/winter transition point: Halloween, Samhain, and the Thinning Veil. She said she was interested in paganism. I said, “I agree. Connected […]

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SEPTEMBER 26 — The Caitlin Book

From a little notebook of Caitlin’s: April 27th, 2012 I am grateful for — My parents My friends My apartment & car My dog My ability to be able to go out and have fun even though I’m sick. In July of 2014, 6 months into full time care-giving, I realized that I hadn’t worked […]

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SEPTEMBER 6–In the Meantime..

I’d like to recognize/document summer, and appreciate the continued kindness and interest in what is going on with us. VISITORS They started with Caitlin’s “main” ICU nurse, Erin, who visited us with her husband and three charming little daughters (3 under age 5!) in June.  They called me “Miss Maryanne,” and Nick, “Uncle Mike.” In […]

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JULY 10 — Announcements

The Memorial Service In December, we barely knew what we were doing as we quickly put together the most beautiful funeral service we could. We wanted to include everyone who wanted to come. But the chapel at the cemetery was tiny. We could only accommodate 100 or so people. Plus it was the holidays. A […]

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JUNE 20–Solstice to Solstice

I am not the first person to compare time to a river, but from my desk here, the comparison is ever-present, the imagery apt. Drop something into the river and off it goes. It’s never coming back. It’s six months today. And a Tuesday, just as it was then. Another solstice. And the great world […]

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